Me & My Art

I wish people stopped comparing artworks. Art is not, in any way, made to be compared. There is no competition, there is no good or bad (to some extent of course). But comparing art would be like comparing feelings. ‘Oh, I feel sadder than you’ or ‘I bet you can’t carry more guilt than I … Continue reading Me & My Art

Sentimental Sunday

This was not a good idea. Singing, writing, recording and listening back to some old songs. Too much feelings, too much emotions caught in fragile melodies and honest words. Some songs were buried, among with their memories of people, used to be’s and old feelings. Listening back takes me back, to that exact time and … Continue reading Sentimental Sunday

16.10.2018

It’s funny how my body can’t distinguish anxiety from excitement. There’s only a fine line between the two, at least according to my body. In both cases I get really nervous, for no particular reason – at least, most of the time there is none – and I feel restless as hell. My hands and … Continue reading 16.10.2018

You, you, you

And maybe I do envy you. Envy your recklessness, how brave and free you are. You don’t care about consequences or other people’s feelings. At least, not much. You break rules and you make them, you drive away in the night and chase your demons. You play all these games, but you play them oh … Continue reading You, you, you

Mental Update

I took my pills, somewhat earlier this evening than I was meant to. I don’t want you to see me like this. I want you to keep that image of me, you had before you started to know me too well. It scares you away, I know. It scares me away too. People talk to … Continue reading Mental Update

Lost in June

I’m trying to find comfort in the uncomfortable I don’t feel at home anymore in my own home I sleep with my eyes open wide Wake up everytime, in the middle of the night Days are passing by, each day faster than the last Working days are exhausting, but they will all be past Try … Continue reading Lost in June