Little Faith

From now on, I’ll try to trust the process I’m determined to go with the flow Accept whatever is coming my way Because​ it seems to be the only way I’m ready to surrender, to fully commit myself To a purpose which is still not clear to me A little unknown, a little out of … Continue reading Little Faith

Find A Way

She says she is not insecure, but yet you don’t see her a day without make-up She says she doesn’t need somebody to love, but loneliness hits her as soon as she wakes up She tells everyone how happy she is and she even starts to believe it herself She has got everything she needs, … Continue reading Find A Way

Creating Perfection

Always striving, looking for perfection In colours, in objects, in patterns, in actions Always searching for the perfect thoughts For a flawless mind and a beautiful heart Always mixing until everything’s matching Style is important, take care of your settings No bright colours allowed here in this room No piece of clothing that doesn’t suit … Continue reading Creating Perfection

Mental Update

I took my pills, somewhat earlier this evening than I was meant to. I don’t want you to see me like this. I want you to keep that image of me, you had before you started to know me too well. It scares you away, I know. It scares me away too. People talk to … Continue reading Mental Update

Lost in June

I’m trying to find comfort in the uncomfortable I don’t feel at home anymore in my own home I sleep with my eyes open wide Wake up everytime, in the middle of the night Days are passing by, each day faster than the last Working days are exhausting, but they will all be past Try … Continue reading Lost in June

Remembering Memories

Yesterday I couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed with my eyes closed and my body covered with blankets. I wasn’t really tired, but I wasn’t wide awake either. I was restless instead. Tossing and turning, praying for sleep to come and get me. But he didn’t. Instead he let me drown, into a dark, deep … Continue reading Remembering Memories

Light and Dark

I feel like I’m more than one person, but not in a schizophrenic kind of way. I am just constantly switching between two versions of myself. One version of me is light. She loves life, she’s spontaneous and assertive, open-minded and hopeful. She believes in herself, recognizes her talents and loves the people that are a … Continue reading Light and Dark

April 30th ‘18

It feels odd, being back home again. The contrast between London and the place I grew up in is huge. Life is so safe here, so simple, so quiet. It might sound strange, but I miss the busy streets, the strangers, the feeling of being anonymous. I’m not saying that I like to feel lonely, … Continue reading April 30th ‘18