I’m so sorry it took me so long to feel all the weight you have been carrying. The load is so heavy and the blisters started to show. The bruises are screaming and my veins are burning. My skin became so flawed and my eyes so sore.
I’m sorry that I was pushing you and hating you for failing, to maintain the balance on the tightrope I have been walking on for too long. I have punished you for being exhausted, for being full of grief and lacking energy. I have cursed you and called you names, but you never deserved that.
You served me through my whole life, in the good and especially in the bad times. You tried your hardest to be good enough for me, to love me, to guide me, to support me in whatever i was doing. Meanwhile I was disapproving you.
I don’t want to see you in pain anymore. The guilt is growing and I’m tired of fighting. I want you to know that it’s okay. It’s okay to let go of all the heavy weight. I promise I’ll be more tender and I’ll listen more closely.
Dear body, I’m so sorry. From now on I will love you unconditionally.